1007 days since i started xanga!!!!! can you believe it? i can't....... man, the czech republic seems sooooo long ago... well it was, almost two years. its not that long, but it sure feels like a lifetime.
sometimes i wonder if it even happened... did i really live in europe for a year and do all the things i think i did, or was it just a dream?
then we get into the question of: am i really in college? will i really be 20 in 8 months... no longer a teenager... i cant believe it!
i dont want to grow up.... "i'm a toys-r-us kid!" lol.... but really, why does time pass as peculiarly as it does??
i feel like i have something very important and philosophical say, but i'm not ready to put it into words, or that i have figured something out about myself i'm just not sure what.
does anyone else know what i mean? like something is laying on your heart, but you just can't figure out what... all day i have felt the urge to cry, i just haven't been able to... can anyone tell me what that might be about??
sorry for the ramblings, this is just my place to rant, and vent, and it feels good. | 
